|I wore Dan's ring next to mine.|
|In the I.C.U.|
It's hard to explain, but let me try: Our normal life has definitely been disrupted (no kidding!), but it feels as if normal life up until now has been an unfocused wandering meander and the last few days have been a steep and direct climb to a goal -- with the hand of God leading the way. We've been hanging on tight and not looking down, let me tell you. In the intensive care unit of a hospital, which is a tight-rope of life and death, you do well to not meander aimlessly. I'm grateful that through my zone out and freak out phases, God and His Mother still had me by the hand (or the scruff of the neck) -- and I knew I was never alone; He was so near I couldn't help but have my thoughts always swirl back to God. And love. And life. And how the first two which can seem so elusive are infinite, but that last one -- the most immediate and tangible one -- is so perversely fleeting and fragile. All the little niggling concerns of the every day just seem stupid when you sense St. Peter standing nearby with his hand on the Pearly Gate.
In times like this, you find out that the love we have for another -- the bone-melting love I have for Dan, the dear love and care of our friends and family, the blessing and support of our pastors -- is the only thing to depend upon, because it's all wrapped up in the love of God -- which in the end is all we've got. And all we need. The road map and the destination.
|Dan with his ring back where it belongs.|
*For anyone who doesn't know, Dan's surgery was necessary due to a perforated esophagus. Apparently, the years he's suffered from acid reflux caused deterioration in his food pipe, and in a bad twist of Murphy's law or something he choked on a piece of meat in exactly the wrong place, causing a tear. One of the most dangerous results of this kind of (quite rare) injury is the "backwash" of stomach acid, food, and blood into the chest cavity; infection and pneumonia were a fear from the beginning. We believe it was due to the prayers offered for Dan all over the world that he came through far better than anyone imagined, and was released from the hospital way earlier than the doctors expected. We're truly blessed and very grateful! The surgery Dan underwent has a 20% fatality rate, as opposed to open-heart surgery, which only has 3%. So. Truly. Thank-you so much, prayer warriors!
|Sharon is a retired nurse and|
was absolutely invaluable!